Wasted tears

I’m so tired of trying to
Get through to you
I’m sick of wishing, I could
Take back everything.
You know I would
I’m so fed up with this
No amount of pills can keep
My mind off this shit
I’m done with breathing lies
We know we both see a goodbye
Coming soon, coming on
Because you’re hurt, you’re right
I fucked up, I’m wrong
I fucked it up, I fucked myself up
I pop pills every night, because of
What I did to you
But you don’t give a fuck
I try to keep my mind off this pain
But I keep getting stuck in this circle of wonder
Circle of hate, stuck under
And “I can’t trust you” is all you have to say?
I had issues, you already knew this fact
I didn’t blame a damn thing on you
I made a mistake. And this is how you react?